You know Star, I’m indebted to you, due to your willingness and efforts to right and repair the relationships between all of us. You have made me realize how polarized I had become in my opinions of others here. I also realized how unfair I was being in my postings of you and a couple others here. I didn’t expect you to come to me with you hand out to me in a gesture of truce. Let alone as a symbol of friendship and respect (What people saw on threads between us was light banter to what was traded with one another in PM’s). I had settled with the idea that you and I were to be enemies till one of us was pushing up flowers!!!
In game that day when you did that, at first I reread it until the chat had pushed it off screen….. even then I did a couple double takes in my mind with a few WTF’s. I didn’t want to trust it, but It was impossible to ignore so I reluctantly excepted your handshake with some distrust and apprehension. That was what made me start questioning myself, because I new deep down you were sincere and was actually attempting to rebuild the preverbal bridge you and I had spent some time and energy throwing gas, dynamite,C4 and a nuc on, for couple previous weeks.
Why was I so dead set on not letting myself believe it or except it?
That question haunted me the remainder of that day and well into the night. Until I woke up and realized what a jack off I had been and I needed to immediately contribute to the efforts of bridge repair!!!!!
That is why I posted my thoughts and apology on your squads thread. You forced a paradigm shift for me. Those don’t often happen, and this one particular was very much needed. Again I thank you.
Star, I miss judged you and underestimated you, as a person and a friend. I’m sorry and ashamed for that. I respect what you did and very much appreciate it, as I respect and appreciate you as an individual. You’re a good man and thankfully, again a friend.
Hause, I'm writing my flight latest log, a tribute to you.......
watch for it!